City of mist

ENGLISH PART

Pécs is the city of mist now. To be honest, it has been for quite a few days. I like it. It makes me feel calm. And I need that, oh man, I really need that right now. October makes me feel the end of this year a bit nearer than it was in September. Funny thing is it makes me feel some urge to get things done and I can not enjoy the best season of all - the fall. :)

September is my birthday month, which I love so much. I did enjoy this September, even with turning 30. :P Haven't thought it's going to change anything because of the tiny 'Peter Pan' who still lives inside of me. But it did. It did change everything. I see myself from another angle now. Like looking at myself from a distance what I couldn't really do before.

I see the little me, I see the little girl with a dragon heart, who just had a huge fantasy others could not handle. Then I see the rascal, the kiddo with just too much energy, who just had an unstoppable brain others could not question. Then I see the rebel, the teenager with just too much to go through with, who just had a wolf inside others could not tame. Then I see the outcast, the young woman with only good intentions, who just woke up to see how bad the core of this world is. A part of me grew up to understand how this world goes. To see how money makes things happen, not people. Yet I still want to doubt this. I want to change how things are.

I see myself now, the 30 years old me. The samurai - the werewolf - the fighter - the kid - the girl - the woman - the rascal - the rebel - the angel - the devil - the friend - the enemy - the courageous - the afraid - the runaway - the warrior - the honest - the liar - the lover - the hater - the savior - the killer - it's all in this little me.

Miracles do happen. I've always believed in that. It's not about only one person. It's about us. We all are in this world as one. You all are just perfect, the way you are. Right here, right now. This matters. I choose to be happy, to enjoy Life as long as it takes. I had a huge roller coaster so far, and you?

October. Remember this day. Remember this fall. It's going to be wonderful. :)

see y'all sooner - this fall ;)